*thinks about eridan to stop self having a panic attack*

we haven’t even left the fucking house yet

i’m gonna cry 

my karkat shirt fell apart and my fucking BINDER fell apart we haven’t even gotten tot the fucking expo and everything is failing

so looks like i’ll be kankri today rather than karkat

and without my binder YAY dysphoria time fucking wonderful

how do you become close friends with someone ?

how do you ask a person you like to be in a relationship with you ??

how ?????????? life

okay so at the mcm i’m staying in a hotel room with my ex and we’re going to be sleeping in the same bed ?? probably and this is 

going to be hella awkward. next expo i’m gonna see if i can stay with friends or room with other friends or something

i’m half tempted to sleep on the floor it’s not that i don’t trust him or anything just i think it’ll make him really upset b/c he still likes me a whole lot and tbf we were in a relationship for five years and we only broke up two months ago so it’s kind of awkward to be sleeping in the same bed

i could sleep in the bath ??

“can you use male pronouns for me and not call me my birth name in front of my friends, if that’s okay?”

“no”

oh okay then ?? what do 

Yo, if anyone wants my mobile number for the MCM, send me an ask or fan mail or something today. Tomorrow, I won’t have any access to my tumblr until Sunday night/Monday morning! 

My cosplay plan is:
Friday > Karkat Vantas
Saturday > Cronus Ampora 
Sunday > Kankri Vantas

I HOPE TO MEET EVERYONE EVER UP THERE AND hug everyone!! :33!

the MCM expo is tomorrow SOMEONE HOLD ME THE EXCITEMENT IS BUILDINg

gONNA RUN AROUND IN COSPLAY. gONNA SEE MY FRIENDS. AAAA

i’m going to try to watercolour paint a picture of Bad Batter

this is gonna go horribly i know it but hey practise is practise 

gonna bleach the front of my hair again, but gonna try our hair chalk this time round and switch the colours round every week or so. probably gonna go with purple first b/c purple is the best colour

trying to queue up as many reblogs as possible so my tumblr doesn’t die whilst i’m at the mcm 

i’m gonna use my phone to check my favourite artists blogs whilst i’m at the expo hehehehe// 

i convinced one of my friends to draw dualscar and when i send him the reference his only reaction was “[he] looks gay as shit”

BUT HE’S gONNA DRAW DUALSCAR FOR ME I’m so v. happy

when people online are like “omg kisses u” i’m like AAaaaah cutie yes kisses many kisses

when people irl at meets are like “KISS” i basically turn into stoned and can’t move for 88 years and occasionally fall on the floor

keaton and i are going to cosplay meenah and cronus and i’m going to touch her butt 

there will be photos. this will be shipping. we will be homo.

i may touch keaton’s butt whilst in cosplay

it’s the only shippingy thing i can think of 

i’ve taken two codeines i’m liable to say something stupid