I brought a new hair band! > u < I don’t often care for them but I need something other than a hairband to keep my hair out my eyes until I get a super short hair-cut.

It’s got a cat-print <3


18th BIRTHDAY STUFFS:
£100
Then £150 from Strider which I need to accept on paypal THANK YOU DUDE &lt;3
PSP
Pokémon Conquest
Pokémon SoulSilver w/ Box and PokéWalker
PANTY &amp; STOCKING with Garterbelt DVDs.
Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon vol 1 &amp; 2 (and have ordered 3)
12 months Xbox Live
How to Draw Manga Guys
£20 Gift Guard
My Little Pony CherryPie &amp; Diamond Rose
Seashell Chocolates
And, prior to today;
Two packs of Pokémon cards and a cool stone with a cat on it (from Keaton) (stone is now good luck charm ok)
Stocking Anarchy SEGAPrize figure from Lycra
£50 from Lucaaaa

18th BIRTHDAY STUFFS:

£100

Then £150 from Strider which I need to accept on paypal THANK YOU DUDE <3

PSP

Pokémon Conquest

Pokémon SoulSilver w/ Box and PokéWalker

PANTY & STOCKING with Garterbelt DVDs.

Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon vol 1 & 2 (and have ordered 3)

12 months Xbox Live

How to Draw Manga Guys

£20 Gift Guard

My Little Pony CherryPie & Diamond Rose

Seashell Chocolates

And, prior to today;

Two packs of Pokémon cards and a cool stone with a cat on it (from Keaton) (stone is now good luck charm ok)

Stocking Anarchy SEGAPrize figure from Lycra

£50 from Lucaaaa


Ah. No.

If I confine into you, tell you I’m gender dysphoric, and that I don’t want to be told I’m “too feminine to be male”.

You don’t

fucking

follow it up again with

"But your legs are TOO feminine to be male" 

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wow i feel so happy today

I’m not even joking I feel super positive. I’m nervous about exam results but other than that I feel happy and motivated to do stuff. 


14 days until my birthday…

13 ‘til results day…

orz… I feel nervous. 


Ok vent art makes me feel better. 

Also going up to London in a few days to see a friend whose coming over from Brazil. Need to organize everything with other people who’re coming to meet him IT’S GONNA BE LIKE A MINI blazblue.com/forum meet up or something ahah.

Though I doubt we’ll talk about BlazBlue much. Mostly just… idk, about people and the forum and life. Gonna be so awesome. 


Crying as I can’t draw.

Crying as I can’t be a dude.

Crying as I be sick.

Today is shitty. I should just curl up and play FF6.


I really wanted to cosplay Nepeta for the October MCM Expo.

I really did.

But I don’t even have enough money to catch the bus right now Y _Y There’s no way I could afford the outfit in time, as I’d have to get the custom hat / horns. And find the right jacket, get the make up, hat, and then save up spending money and transport money… 


It feels like a pretty big kick to the head when the thing that took my depression away several months ago is now the thing helping it to slowly bring it back.

But hey, it’s my own damn fault. 

I have a doctors appointment soon… I don’t feel like going any-more. 


Ugh. Who knew drawing a self portrait could be so hard… I sure hope my Uni professor isn’t one of those “YOU CAN ONLY DRAW IN REALISM, ANYTHING ELSE IS A FAIL” kinda professors…  My realistic stuff just looks odd as hell. When I draw something simplified, it gets a bit more life too it… More personality and atmospheric, even in a doodle. 


I gotta go to the bank orz

And when I get back, I’m drawing some gay stuff and cutesy Black Mages. 


wow um jeez

I just kind of want to cut of most of my hair and wear my binder forever right now.

All of a sudden I’m having a lot of gender related feels.

and i really want a dick. 

I wish it was possible to be reborn as a dude or just step into a machine or have an operation to make me 100% male cries


oops i’m tired again

you know what that means

what gender am i do i want to be time!!

okay seriously sleep time


Okay so. “13-07-2012” is the expected delivery date for my package. It’s now “16-07-2012”. ParcelForce haven’t even attempted to delivery my package yet, it hasn’t left the Gatwick Depot once, despite me paying customs charges five days ago

Not just that, they didn’t even SEND me a letter regarding the customs charge. I had to E-MAIL THEM FOR IT. 

Cause I noticed the customs charge come up on the tracking… And for a week after, no letter. 

I’m seriously getting frustrated. And it’s REALLY ANNOYING that ParcelForce and RoyalMail have a monopoly over the UK main system, despite being completely incompetent, making thousands of errors and having staff which just LOVE to steal your packages! Good work guys, you employ assholes.

It’s also a shame there isn’t really anywhere to speak out about how douchey and bad they are. 

I wish I could just… drive up to the Gatwick Depot and pick the up the package myself :| But I can’t drive, and everyone I know who can drive is busy. 


I need to stay in all day waiting for a package.

ParcelForce still haven’t contacted me in response to why the hell it’s late and when the hell it’ll actually arrive…